I just want to be okay.
I don’t know what normal feels like, but I’d really like to.
How nice it would be to just wake up and not feel this heaviness weighing over my shoulders. For the fog to be gone, and my mind free of negative thoughts and feelings.
I want to be happy. Content with my life. I don’t want to feel anxious for most of my day, with racing thoughts engulfing my mind. I want this feeling of constantly being on the verge of crying, to go away. I don’t want to remember what it feels like to wake up and just “know” that it’s not going to be a good day.
I need help. I need direction. I don’t know how to live my own life anymore. For a second,even a day, everything seems to be okay. But then it’s gone, just like that. What do I do? Someone please tell me. I’m so lost. And it gets harder everyday.